10K and another week in the books

Sunday Jon and I walked/ran a 10K. That is 6.2 miles. We finished it in 1 hour 39 mins. Our goal was to finish it in under 2 hours and we did it!!! Crazy good! We also went to a cook out for Memorial Day. We didn't eat bad and stayed on track. Very proud of us.

We both weighed in this morning. Jon lost 1 lb this week. He is at 226 lbs now. I lost 2 lbs this week and now weigh 202 lbs. I can not wait to get under 200! I think I can do it in the next week or two. My July 4th goal was to weigh 199 lbs or less but I think I am going to meet that goal 2 or 3 weeks early so I am going to have to set new ones. We are rockin this weight loss thing.

We have also walked to the park and back 2X this week. It is a 1.92 mile walk round trip. We get to exercise a little and the kids get to play at the park. What could be better?!? I am loving the exercise that we have been getting lately. It makes me feel better!

304.5 & 204 Comparison

Just the facts:

304.5-------------------------204
Size 28 pants Size 16 pants
Size 5X shirts Size XL shirts
46F bra 40DD bra
almost 30min mile 15min mile

So I see it all on paper and think that I have done a great job so far. I still can't see it in pictures or when I look in the mirror. Maybe someone else can. For the first time ever I am adding pictures to this blog. Let me know what you think.

Met a major goal and let down by the reward!

This morning when I weighed in I was very happy. This week I hit the 100 lbs lost mark. When I started this journey I decided that when I had lost 100 lbs I would reward myself with a mini shopping spree. I was really excited when I set out for the mall. I decided to try Victoria Secrets and did get some cute panties but was greatly disappointed that they didn't have any bras that were big enough to fit me. I have no idea why that upset me so greatly. When I started this I was a 46F and now I am a 40DD. I am proud of what I have done so far and I know that I can reach all of my goals but it really hit me hard. It hit me hard that I still have so much to lose and that even after losing so much I can't shop in normal stores. I don't know if Victoria Secrets bras will ever fit me. I hope that some day soon they will but if they don't I can't let this keep me down.

36 weeks - 99.5 lbs

So close to 100 lbs lost! I know I can hit it next week. I can't believe that we have lost so much so fast. This past week was really good for me. I didn't have any trouble staying on plan at all. It is almost scary how easy it was. I hope that this continues but I know it wont always be so easy. Some weeks are just harder than others. Some weeks I feel like I am stumbling all week long. I know it is all in my head. I just have to keep my focus and keep my head straight.

I have noticed a huge difference in my TOM. It used to last 10 or 11 days and be super heavy flow the entire time. Now it lasts for 5 or 6 days and is light to med flow. I am so glad that it has changed! I used to hate it and now it isn't to bad. I will never like it but now it doesn't drive me crazy.

I think Jon had a rough week. He kept going back for more food even though he said that he wasn't hungry. In the end he didn't gain any weight this week but he didn't lose any either. I hope that he has a better week ahead of him. I can't do this without him. He has to get back on track. I know he can. He is strong. Together we are strong.

Gerard Way is...

The lead vocalist for My Chemical Romance. I just said that Gerard Way is a very smart person and then went and looked him up. How is it that someone only 2 years older than me could have said something so profound. At least profound to me. It touched me. Guess I shouldn't let it take anything away knowing that he is in a band. Nothing says that singers can't be smart. Still love the quote. I happen to like My Chemical Romance too!

Gerard Way is a very smart person.

"You should love yourself. Sometimes you have to kind of die inside in order to rise from your own ashes and believe in yourself and love yourself and become a new person....We are all becoming what we want to become"- Gerard Way

I saw this quote on 3FC and it really hit home. I think that is what I have done. I am raising from the ashes and learning to believe in myself and love myself. I am becoming a new person. Now I have to go and find out who this Gerard Way is.

My Magic Numbers---Updated Again

I saw this on a message board (3FC) and thought it was a neat idea. Here are my magic numbers.

304.5-Highest weight ever (9/03/07)
299.0-Out of the 300's (9/10/07)
279.5-Down 25 lbs (10/20/07)
274.0-1st 10% goal (10/27/07)
254.5-Down 50 lbs (12/11/07)
246.5-2nd 10% goal (12/28/07)
245.5-Current weight (01/01/08)
229.5-Down 75 lbs (02/15/08)
226.5-Half way to goal (2/28/08)
222.0-3rd 10% goal (3/14/08)
218.0-No longer Morbidly Obese just Severely Obese (3/23/08)
204.5-Down 100 lbs (5/19/08)

Still working on:
200.0-4th 10% goal
199.0-ONEderland
191.0-No longer Severely Obese just Obese
180.0-5th 10% goal
179.5-Down 125 lbs
164.0-No longer Obese just overweight
162.0-6th 10% goal
149.0-Goal weight (May change later)

TOM & 1/2 lb

Well, it isn't much but it is a loss so I wont complain to loudly. I lost 1/2 lb this week. TOM showed up and is kicking my tail. I haven't had the cravings that I usually have during this time of the month but I have felt generally fat and gross. My pants are fitting different so I know that I am retaining water like crazy. Hopefully it will all be gone by next weigh in. It is a curse I tell ya. I now weigh 207.5 lbs. Yay! I am well on my way to 199.

I was thinking the other day about how boring this blog is. I know why it is as dry as a piece of overdone toast. I haven't wanted to become invested in this blog or my weight loss. I figured if I kept myself emotionally detached then it wouldn't hurt as bad if I failed at this. The closer I get to losing 100 lbs (3 lbs more and I will cross that line) the more I start to believe that I can really do it. Yesterday morning I woke up believing for the first time that I can and will be healthy. Not just faking it until I make it. I woke up really believing it. Great and scary feeling. This whole time the only thing standing between me and success was me. What was I thinking? And this post was going to be super quick because I have to go run errands. :)

We rode our bikes Sat and Sun. It was so much fun! We rode for 5.2 miles on Sat. We rode on the Silver Comet Trail both days. It is so beautiful there. On Sun we rode for 7.2 miles. In all we rode almost 12.5 miles over the two days. My butt hurt bad for a few days after. I told Jon that I need a tractor seat to be able to ride my bike comfortable. That's what I get for having such a big butt! We went and bought me a bigger seat that kinda looks like a tractor seat Sun morning and that is what I used Sun. SO much BETTER. My butt still hurt from Sat's ride but it was better. I am hoping that we get to ride Sun. We will see, it might rain.

Alright, enough blabbing. I do have to run some errands. I am thinking that I will update my magic numbers post sometime today. Be on the lookout for it!

psst: Can you believe that I have lost 97 lbs!!!!!!