Loose Size 18 jeans!

Isn't that insane? When I started this weight loss journey I wore a TIGHT size 28 jeans. I bought me a new pair of jeans this week. I bought a size 18 thinking that I could squeeze into them. I wore them today and they are TO BIG for me. I don't even have to unzip or unbutton them to pull them up or down. I also got a pair of Capris that are size 16. I figured I would be able to wear them this summer. I put them on last night and while they are a little tight they are only a LITTLE tight. I can wear them! I haven't been in a size 16 pants since my freshman year in high school. I was 15 yrs old they last time I could wear a 16. Blows my mind. I have gone down almost 6 pants sizes!!!

I have been struggling all week long. The scale has shown a small gain every morning since Wed morning. I have my official weigh in tomorrow and am hoping for at least a small loss. So far I haven't had a gain and I know it will happen sooner or later I am just hoping for the late. Keep your fingers crossed that the scale is nice to me in the morning.

51%

I want to lose 51% of my starting weight. I feel like I will never be able to acheive that goal. I still have about 23% of my self to lose. I know I didn't get fat over night and I wont get skinny over night but I wish it would hurry up already. I know that this is going to be a life long battle to get the weight off and keep it off but I hate being overweight. Ugh. I am so ready to be able to buy normal size clothes. So ready to be the cute, thin chick. So tired of being fat.

No longer MORBIDLY OBESE!!!!

Wow, what a great feeling. I lost 2 lbs this week bring my weight down to 217lbs. As of this weigh in I am no longer morbidly obese!!!!!!!!! I can't believe I have come this far. I know I have a long way to go but I am well on my way. I haven't weighed this since March 1998. 10 years. Wow.

I am still loving my Nike+ ipod kit. I found out this morning that I can run a mile in under 16 mins. When I first started it took me 24 mins to run a mile. Big improvement.

Last night I noticed that my calves looked smaller so I measured them. One of my big goals is to be able to wear a pair of knee high boots. I have never been able to zip them. My calves were 22" when I started this and now they are 18.5". I need to find out what size they have to be to be able to fit into the boots I want. Something to strive for.

Jon had a rough week scale wise. He stayed the same this week. I tried to tell him that is much better than a gain but I think it discouraged him a little. I am so proud of him. He looks totally different than he used to. He is sexy. He is getting healthier every day. I am proud.

Nike+ ipod sensor

I got me a new pair of shoes over the weekend. They are the Nike+ that take the ipod sensor so you can track your running online. I also got the sensor and an arm band for my ipod nano. Now I am waiting for my nano to get here. It should be here in the mail today. I have signed up for some challenges on the Nike+ website. I am looking foward to trying the sensor out. I hope the nano comes today!

We got a spot!

On July 4th, 2008 we will both be running in the Peachtree Road Race! I am so excited that we both got a spot. I am very nervous about it also. Now I really have to get serious about training to run the 10K. I am looking for a 5K to run in between now and time for the PRR. We have never been in a race of any kind and I think it would be good for us to get our feet wet before PRR. Send all of the good luck and hard work vibes you can. We need em.

Day 205 & PRR applications

We have been at this for 205 days. The amount of weight we have lost in that time is unbelievable. At weigh in this week Jon lost 1 lb. He now weighs 236 lbs. He has lost 71.25 lbs. Crazy! I lost 3.5 lbs this week. I now weigh 219 lbs!!! I have lost 85.5 lbs so far. Wow! We can do this.

I mailed our Peachtree Road Race applications on Monday. It will be a while before we know if we get a spot in the race or not. I have my fingers crossed that we get a spot. I want to finish the PRR! I have lost 85 lbs in around 6 months. I know I can finish a 10K.

TOM kicked my butt---Jon did great!

Only 1/2 lb this week but I am ok with it. It is a loss and it is my TOM. It will be better next week. Jon lost 3.5 lbs this week! He has lost a total of 70.5 lbs. Wow!

Obesity Survivor

I heard the term "Obesity Survivor" this week on the Biggest Loser. I really don't like the term at all. I don't always want to be known as an Obesity Survivor. It sounds like I had a terminal illness that I had no control over. Yeah, it would be nice to say and believe that I had no control over my weight but it would be a lie. I have always had control over my weight. I have always had control over what I put in my mouth. So I haven't always made the best choices. That doesn't mean that I have/had some termial illness that I couldn't do anything about. Ugh, I really hate that term.

I am fat

No it's not a surprise. I have always been fat. I am working hard to change that. It was still a shock to me when my 9 yr old son called me fat this morning. He knows that we do not call people names like that. I never want to be called fat again. More than that I never want my children to think of me as fat again. It makes me very sad that I let myself get so fat. I know that I am changing it but I still have a long way to go. I will get there. I just hope that my children never have to suffer the way that I have because of thier weight. I never want my children to be fat.

6 Months

We weighed in this morning. Jon was down another pound. I was down 4 more pounds. Together we have lost 148.5 lbs. I have lost 81.5 lbs and Jon has lost 67 lbs. We are doing so great. I am over half way to my goal. In 6 months I have made it half way. That is still unbelieveable to me. I am so proud. I have never been so proud of myself. 6 Months! I can't wait to look back at this 6 months from now and see how much farther I have gone. 6 Months.

Feeling like I can't win the race.

I feel like I am in a race. A race where I hurry up and cross the finish line every Tues morning (weigh in) just so I can start all over. I am tired and feeling like I can't win this race. It is the same race every week. I just want to finish this race. I know that in order to get healthy and stay healthy I will always have to run this race. I know that I can and will do it. I am bored with waiting for the day that I wake up skinny. This will forever be a race that I must run but I am sick of starting over. Ugh. Weigh-in is tomorrow morning. I will weigh in and then start the race all over again in anticipation of the finish line of next Tues morning. Wish me luck.