Day 1n

I *think* today was day one of the restart. Day 1 of changing my relationship with food again. It's been a million years since I last updated. We have 5 kids now. The youngest, Cara, is 14 weeks old. I haven't stepped on a scale in weeks. I have no idea what I weigh right now. I think it's around 270? I'll check sometime soon. I did great with not using food as comfort all day today. I need to repeat that every day! Around 7:30pm I started wanting to snack and drank water instead. I have to do this for me. My body aches and I am so tired. 40 is on the horizon. My dad had triple bypass in November and he is only 56. That is NOT what I want to be doing at 56. Let's do this instead!

3.4 lbs until wedded bliss weight

221.4 - I am so excited to be 3.4 lbs away from 218.  That's what I weighed 15 years ago when Jon & I got married.  I've lost 90.6 lbs so far.  199 here I come! 😃  Wonder how long it will take me.  I need to start making plans and setting goals.  I would love to hit under 200 by Jon's Birthday on August 5th.  That's 21.6 lbs in almost 3 months.  Totally doable, right?!?

The after

I read a blog today of a lady who was trying to get to the after with her weight loss.  If I can figure out how to link to her post from the blogger app I'll add it here.  So much truth in her words.   Those words resonate with me.  I am someone who once lost 140 lbs to get to the after, only to learn that there was no after and gain all the weight back.  The number on the scale isn't the problem, I am.  The way I view myself and food and food with myself.  That's the problem.  Trying to get to a finish line instead of trying to live.  That is the problem.  At least for me.  I certainly can hear her!

Two months later and here I am!

Time keeps on slipping.  Two months since I updated.  I am lower on the scale than I was then.  Down to 227.  27 until 200...so what?  11lbs in 2 months.  Not great but I'll take it.  It's better than up.

Lily is 6 months old today.  I adore the little personality that she has been showing more and more of lately.  She is our happy girl.  I am a very blessed mama.

I am loving the warmer weather and longer days of spring.  We've planted tons of flowers and now our yard makes me smile.

Looking for a minivan and not having any luck.  Thought we had found the one and the owner sold it out from underneath us.  I was angry for about 5 seconds and then thought about how the PERFECT one is out there and God is leading us to it or it to us.  It all works out in the end either way.  No need to be upset.

I'm excited about taking up on old hobby once again.  I've always loved sewing but haven't had time or motivation in a long time.  I picked up some fabric yesterday and am going now to work on a few projects.  Thinking of trying to set up an at home shop like on etsy and go to craft fairs to push my wares.  Need something to make a little bit of money.  Need to be a grown-up for once and get control of my budget.  :}

     I won't say it this time because every time I do I end up losing interest or time or my mind and I never get around to blogging again.  It has been forever. I am on track and headed back down the scale.
     My new high weight is 312 lbs.  I have had 2 babies since the last time I posted.  Aveline is now 15 months and Lily is 4 months.  I am exhausted and currently weigh 238 lbs.  By the end of the year that will be under 200 lbs.  I joined the YMCA this week and have started working out.  Yay.  Oh and this will no longer focus on just my weight loss but my entire life.  I am more than my weight after all.  :)

Kroger to the rescue!

I haven't had time to go grocery shopping for the last 3 weeks. I went today and bought $245.36 worth of groceries. With my Kroger Plus card and a coupon plan from SouthernSavers.com I spent $90.81. I saved $154.55! Hard to believe that I saved that much with just a little planning. I love it!

I am so sad: For Sumer there are no more tomorrows.

My heart is broken for the Sumer Thompson family in Florida. I normally don't follow much in the news but this story pulls on my heart strings. I am so sad that they found this little girl in the manner that they did. When I heard on the news that she was missing I prayed that they would find her safe and sound. There was no such luck and now her family has to move on with their lives without her. I cried this morning when I heard that she was found dead. I don't know how her family will get through this. I can't imagine what her twin brother feels. 7 years old. It just isn't right. I pray that they find the person responsible. They don't deserve to live. I am so sad.

My house is a wreck

Seriously? My house is such a mess. It makes me cring. I would spout the same lie that I always do when it comes to why my house is so gross but it obviously isn't the truth. The usual "reason" is that I just don't have time. The truth is that I waste a bunch of time. I have time to type this. I could be doing laundry or the dishes or Lord help I could have cleaned a toilet by now. I should be study but...I got tired of looking at it. It is the same excuse with eating right and exercising. There isn't enough time. Ugh. I want to talk about this more but the computer I am using is demon possessed and I don't have enough time. :)