My weight numbers

304.5-Highest weight ever (9/03/07)
299.0-Out of the 300's (9/10/07)
279.5-Down 25 lbs (10/20/07)
274.0-1st 10% goal (10/27/07)
254.5-Down 50 lbs (12/11/07)
246.5-2nd 10% goal (12/28/07)
245.5-Current weight (01/01/08)
229.5-Down 75 lbs (02/15/08)
226.5-Half way to goal (2/28/08)
222.0-3rd 10% goal (3/14/08)
218.0-No longer Morbidly Obese just Severely Obese (3/23/08)
204.5-Down 100 lbs (5/19/08)
200.0-4th 10% goal (6/10/08)
199.0-ONEderland (6/17/08)
191.0-No longer Severely Obese just Obese (7/22/08)!!!!!!!!
180.0-5th 10% goal (9/23/08)
179.5-Down 125 lbs (9/26/08)

Still working on:
164.0-No longer Obese just overweight
162.0-6th 10% goal
149.0-Goal weight (May change later)

Thinking about changing my goal weight

My goal weight is 149 lbs. I set that goal when I first started losing weight. It seemed like a number that I would never be able to get to. Now that I am less than 20 lbs away from that weight I am thinking about changing my goal. In order to be in a healthy BMI I have to be 136 lbs or less. I want to be in the healthy BMI. I haven't decided what I want my ultimate goal weight to be. I know it is just a number and I wont really know where I want my weight to end up at until I get there but it still helps to have a number to shoot for. I am leaning toward 132 lbs. I wish I could see how I would look at 132 lbs right now so I could know for sure it that is what I want to be. Only time will tell I guess.

Those make your butt look little 12-18-08

Holy cow. I won $175 in a 6 week weight loss challenge on Sat. Today I took some of the money and went to buy some new clothes. It is a great problem to have that none of my clothes fit. Today I tried on 5 pairs of pants. I ended up getting a pair of jeans and a pair of khakis. The jeans are a size 10 and the khakis are an 8! I am shocked that I can get them up past my knees and even more shocked that they fit perfect! I put on the jeans when I got home and Mikey said "You look little". I asked him what he meant and he said "Those make your butt look little!" lmao. He is going to make a great husband to some lucky woman one day. Now if he could just teach his dad to say stuff like that.

Size 8's!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't stop smiling.

Update on my weight.

Weight last week: 167
Weight this week: 166.5

Lost this week: .5 lbs

Total lost so far: 138 lbs

Left to lose: 17.5 lbs

Another roller coaster week with my weight. This weekend I made and ate divinity, fudge, and Irish potato candy. It was a bad weekend eating wise. On Saturday night I saw 178 lbs on the scale. A lot of it was water retention from TOM and salt from all the junk food I ate Saturday. Thank goodness I had a few days to eat right and flush it all out of my system before I had to weigh in. I have to start being consistent again. I know I am going to eat bad tomorrow and Thursday I just hope to keep it in check.

Jon is amazing

Jon was 218.5 lbs this morning. He is 3.5 lbs away from his goal weight. This is the least he as weighed since he was about 13 0r 14 years old. It blows my mind. He has been maintaining his weight at around 220 lbs for the last 6 months or so. He makes me believe that we can do this for life. I am so inspired by him!

Watch out 160's...here I come!

Weight last week: 171
Weight this week: 170.5

Lost this week: 0.5 lbs

Total lost so far: 134 lbs

Left to lose: 21.5 lbs

TOM is here. I could have lost more this week but ate REALLY bad on Sat. I am ok with it. I hope to hit the 160's next week.

~~~~12's~~~~

I am on cloud 9 right now. I went to a thrift store today to get a few sweaters cause it is getting cold here. They had thier pants on sale for $2.99 a pair. I have been wearing 14's. They only had 1 pair of 14's that I liked but they had 2 pairs of size 12's that I liked. I figured I couldn't beat the price and I would be able to wear the 12's in a month or two. I tried them all on when I got home and the 12's FIT. The 14's are a little baggy and the 12's fit perfect. When I started losing weight I was wearing size 28 pants. My goal size was 12. I can't believe I am sitting here wearing 12's. In 14 months I went from size 28 down to size 12!!! I am changing my goal size to 8's as of today. If I can get to a 12, I can get to an 8!!!

I'm baaaaaaaaack!

Weight last week: 175
Weight this week: 171

Lost this week: 4 lbs

Total lost so far: 133.5 lbs

Left to lose: 22 lbs

I had a really good OP week. Last weeks gain made me take a long hard look at my eating and get back on track. I was nicely rewarded with a 4 lb loss this week. My hope is to be in the 160's sometime in the next 2 weeks. I can do it!

Vascular Surgeon Report

I went to the Vascular Surgeon yesterday. The Surgeon did another Carotid Ultrasound. He said that I have something called tortuous carotid arteries. That is just the medical term for curvy carotid artery veins. Evidently I was born that way. It makes it hard for them to get a clear view of the artery on an ultrasound. He said that I have some thickening in one place in my carotid but he doesn't feel like it is a problem at this point. I have to go back every 6 months for a carotid ultrasound. At some point I will have to have surgery to straighten out my artery and remove the thickening but the surgeon said that it wont be anytime soon. We still don't know what is causing the heart palpitations and chest pain. I have a followup with the Cardiologist on Nov 12. I have been cleared to exercise again and things are looking up!

Wake up call!

Weight last week: 173
Weight this week: 175

Lost this week: 0
Gain this week: 2 lbs

Total lost so far: 129.5 lbs

Left to lose: 26 lbs

This is the first week I have had a gain since I started losing weight. Week 61 of my weight loss journey and I gained 2 lbs. I know that it will come back off and I am doing ok with it. I deserved this gain. I am owning it and moving forward. I have been stress eating for 3 weeks and am surprised that I have only gained 2 lbs from it. In all fairness I was up 8 lbs between Tues and Sun. As of Sunday I am back on track and the weight is going back down. I think this was the wake up call that I needed to get back on track. I can do this!

It has been almost a month since I updated

Where does the time go? My time has been spent at ER's and Doctor offices for the last month. A few weeks ago I started having heart fluttering and chest pain. Through every test imaginable I think we have finally narrowed it down to what is wrong with me. I went yesterday and had my stress echo test. Everything checked out a-ok with it. Of course, I have always heard that there is a calm before the storm. When I got home there was a message for me to call my cardiologist for the results of some of the other tests I have had done. It was to late to call them back but I knew that there was something wrong because I signed a wavier saying they could leave test results on the answering machine if they came back normal. I finally called them this morning and they had my carotid artery ultra-scan results. They say that I have a blockage in my left carotid artery. I am not sure how bad the blockage is. I have an appointment on Nov 3rd with a Vascular Surgeon to have more tests done and to discuss surgical options. I am scared beyond belief. My granddaddy died from complications from surgery to remove a blockage in his left carotid artery. I know that there are differences in his case and mine but it still scares the crap out of me. I haven't cried yet but I did come close. As the day goes on I feel more hopeless and more like I need a good cry. Please pray for me but more than that pray for my kids. Mikey and Ella are my world and damn it, I don't want thier mommy to be taken away from them while they are so young. (See, I told you I felt pretty hopeless.)

On the weight loss front I am still pushing through. I am down to 173.5 lbs. I am not sure how much I have lost in the last month as I don't remember how much I weighed the last time I posted. I think I am averaging about 5lbs a month now. Not a whole lot but it is headed in the right direction and it will add up eventually. Now we just have to see if I will live long enough to reach my weight loss and life goals. Wish me luck.

Mama called the doctor, and the doctor said,

"No more monkeys, Jumping on the bed."

Really though, I went to the doctor on Monday. I talked to the doctor for a few mins about what had been going on with my breathing, and he decided to do an EKG. The nurse told me to take my shirt and bra off and cover up with a paper the size of a place-mat. That was pretty funny in and of itself. Then, the nurse came in and grabbed my place-mat sized paper and left me laying on the table totally exposed. Not a big deal except my boobs look like tube socks with tennis balls in them. She then sticks little sensor things all over my chest and tells me that it would be worse if I were a man with a hairy chest. She tells me that it would be worse because the glue off of the sensors gets stuck in thier chest hair. Sorry, but I don't think that would be a bit worse then laying there with my mile long boobs flopped out. When the EKG was done the doctor came back and said that everything looked fine with it. He believes that I just have exercise induced asthma. I am wondering if that is true or if it was just an easy answer. He gave me a script for an inhaler. I have to use it 30 mins prior to exercise for a month and see if that helps. I pray that it does. If it doesn't help I will have to get other tests done. He gave me orders for a chest x ray but I just can't afford to get it done right now. If the inhaler doesn't improve things I will have to find the money and get the chest x ray done. Thanks to everyone that was/is praying for me. It means a lot to know that people are sending up prayers for me. I will update how things go with the inhaler.

Going to the Doctor on Monday

So I am a little freaked right now. I have been thinking for a while that I needed to go to the doctor for some breathing issues that I have when I exercise. When I first started losing weight (304.5 lbs) I could barely breath while exercising. I thought that if I lost weight I would be able to breath better. It isn't that I can't breath in every day life but when I try to exercise I feel like I am going to suffocate. I got a new sports bra thinking that maybe my boobs flopping around when I was trying to exercise was causing part of the problem. It helped a little but not enough. I don't breath through my nose because I can't. I have been told in the past that my adenoids are huge and that may play a part in why I can't breath through my nose, I don't know. I guess I need to face the facts. My dad has heart disease, my granddaddy had heart disease and one of my aunts had heart disease. I am worried that I might have a blockage or something in my heart. I have been kicking around the idea of going to the doctor about this for about a year. This week a lady that is my age and has a daughter my Ella's age had a heart attack. She is slightly overweight and smokes but she is only 32! That isn't old enough for crap like this. She had to have a stint put in and she will be fine, but it still scares me. It scared me into making the call and setting up an appointment. I don't know what the doctor will find if anything but I am scared. I am to young to have heart problems. I know that I have been obese most of my life but I am changing that now. I am to young for this. My kids are to young to not have a mom. Pray for me. Pray that every thing checks out ok. I have lost 123.5 lbs and come to far for this to stop me know.

It's been a couple of weeks. 1 year & 121.5 lbs down!

I am not sure how the last few weeks got away from me without me posting an update. I have been doing pretty well on the weight loss front. On Aug 26th I was down to 184.5 lbs. On Sept 2nd I was down to 183 lbs! Sept 2nd marked 1 year since we started losing weight and getting healthy. I feel like those good habits are second nature to me now. I beat the first year, I can beat the next 35 lbs! Here are two pictures to show my progress.



In 1 year I have lost 121.5 lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

In 1 year Jon has lost 85 lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We ROCK!!!

Tis that time again.

I lost 3 pounds this week! 3 lbs! I was pretty on track with my eating. I got all of my exercise in. I am really excited about it. I haven't had a big loss like this in a few months. It really helps to believe that I can do it. I have another 36.5 lbs to lose. I wish it was all gone now. I will get there. Slowly but surely. Oh, today I wore a pair of size 14 pants!!! I haven't fit in a size 14 since I was 12 years old! I wanted to be at my goal weight by my 30th birthday. I only have 5 months til then and I don't know if I am going to make it. I sure as heck am gonna try and at least get as close to goal as possible. Wonder what size pants I will wear at 149 lbs. Wow, 185.5 and I can't believe it half the time.

Busy...so busy!

Life has been crazy busy around here for the last week and a half. If you don't know I homeschool my ds (which doesn't mean dear right now!). We decided to give GVA a try this year. Wednesday was our first day of school. Every other day is good. It is the other days that drive me crazy. Math...oy. I need to be medicated. Any way back to the weight loss thing. Last week at weigh in I was 188.5. I lost 1/2 lb last week. I have to weigh in again in the morning. I have my fingers crossed for a bigger loss. I have been eating healthy and exercising every day. I think I can pull out at least a 1 lb loss. We will see. Jon has hit a plateau I think. He has been the same weight give or take a lb for the last month. I hope that the scale is nice to him tomorrow too.

Today's weigh in.

Weight last week: 190
Weight this week: 189

Lost this week: 1 lb

Total lost so far: 115.5 lbs

Left to lose: 40 lbs

Crazy good. Yay me!

Major identity crisis

I know this is probably the stupidest thing to complain about but it is a serious issue for me right now. I am having an identity crisis. I have no idea who I am anymore. I have focused on losing weight so completely that I haven't been very focused on anything else. Everything about me is changing. Of course my body has shrunk considerably but I am changing on the inside as well. I used to believe that shopping for clothes would be easier and more fun when I had lost weight. It is so much harder to clothes shop right now than it has ever been in my life. I go shopping and naturally migrate to the Plus size section. Nothing in that section fits me anymore. I look at the clothes in the normal size section and I feel like a fraud. I feel like I have no business in that section and fully expect one of the employees to come and tell me that I can't shop in that section, that I must shop in the Plus section. I sometimes worry that I used to be nicer than I am now. I am not a jerk but I used to not speak up for myself. I used to feel like a floor mat for other people. Now I don't take it because I deserve better but, I worry that it makes me come off as a jerk. I am so confused. I have no idea who I am, body or mind, anymore.

Just an update because I can check off another of my weight loss goals!!!

I saw this on a message board (3FC) and thought it was a neat idea. Here are my magic numbers.

304.5-Highest weight ever (9/03/07)
299.0-Out of the 300's (9/10/07)
279.5-Down 25 lbs (10/20/07)
274.0-1st 10% goal (10/27/07)
254.5-Down 50 lbs (12/11/07)
246.5-2nd 10% goal (12/28/07)
245.5-Current weight (01/01/08)
229.5-Down 75 lbs (02/15/08)
226.5-Half way to goal (2/28/08)
222.0-3rd 10% goal (3/14/08)
218.0-No longer Morbidly Obese just Severely Obese (3/23/08)
204.5-Down 100 lbs (5/19/08)
200.0-4th 10% goal (6/10/08)
199.0-ONEderland (6/17/08)
191.0-No longer Severely Obese just Obese (7/22/08)!!!!!!!!


Still working on:
180.0-5th 10% goal
179.5-Down 125 lbs
164.0-No longer Obese just overweight
162.0-6th 10% goal
149.0-Goal weight (May change later)

I figured out my biggest fear.

So I have put a lot of thought into why I have always been overweight. I have spent a lot of time trying to figure out what I was so afraid would happen if I lost weight. The other day it finally hit me what my biggest fear has always been when it comes to losing weight. I am afraid of being weak. I have always been such a strong person. Strong physically and emotionally. I have been through some really rough times and had to be tough to make it. I have never wanted to be a thin (which to me meant weak) little girl. I still don't want to be weak but I have come to see that being thin and healthy does not mean that I will be weak. With strength training I will be stronger than I have ever been while being healthier at the same time. I have no idea why my brain thought that me being so grossly overweight was making me strong and keeping me safe. I guess maybe my weight was like extra padding against the harsh world. Thanks to Lyn (escapefromobesity.blogspot.com) I have figured out my 1# fear and I am facing it head on. Thank you again to Lyn. I will beat this and I will only be stronger.

46 weeks into this journey

Looking back it doesn't seem like it has been that long. Although sometimes it feels like it has been a lifetime. This week I was down another 2 lbs bringing my weight to 190.5 lbs. I can't believe that I am so close to the 180's. I have lost 114 lbs so far. Wow. I know I can do this. I control my weight. Food no longer controls my weight. I have 41.5 lbs left to lose to reach my goal weight. To bad my goal weight is subject to change. :) I played the Wii Fit 4 times last week for at least 30 mins each time. I walked several days for about a hour each time. I don't lose my breath as easy as I did before. I am proud and I feel good about me. For a long time I didn't feel good about myself. Isn't it silly how we let things like our weight control us and control how we feel about ourselves? No more food or weight controlling me. I have control.

100 Reasons to lose weight

This is my 100th post on this blog. I will come back and add reasons to this post until I reach 100 reasons that I want to lose weight. Here goes:

1. About a year ago my dad had to have a stint put in his heart. He is diabetic and overweight. It kills me to see him so sick and doing it to himself. I decided then and there that I wasn't going to put my kids through what I have been through with my dad.

2. I want to be healthy.

3. I want to be able to play with my kids.

4. I want to wear cute clothes.

5. I want to run races.

6. I want to climb mountains.

7. I want to be an adventurer and not let my size stop me.

8. I want to turn my husband on and not be so ashamed of my body that I hide it from him.

9. I want to be the me that I know I really am but that has been hidden under all my fat for to many years.

10. I don't want to pass on the legacy of obesity to my kids.

11. I want to look good in a bathing suit.

12. I want to live a long life.

13. I want to control my life and not let food control it.

14. I don't want my kids friends to make fun of me.

15. I want my kids to be proud that I am their mom.

16. I want to be the best that I can be.

17. I want to be comfortable in my own skin.

18. I want to be athletic.

19. I want to laugh and be happy.

20. I want to fit in booths at restaurants.

21. I want to fit in stalls in public restrooms.

22. I want the seat belt to fit around me in the car.

23. I want to fit in an airplane seat.

24. I want to be thinner and healthier than all the people that made fun of me in school.

25. I want to love me.

192.5 and scared

This is the first time I have been under 200 lbs since I was in highschool. That was 10 years ago. I just realized this morning that I should be out of the 190's and into the 180's within a month. I can't explain how good that makes me feel. It also makes me very scared. I am scared that I am going to relax to much and gain the weight back. I am scared that I wont be able to meet my weight loss goals. I am scared that I am going to hate my body if/when I do reach my goal weight. Gotta face my fears and keep going. I can't let fear stop me. I read a blog called "Escape from Obesity" by a lady named Lyn. She is my inspiration on days that I don't think I can keep going. She made me face my fears and prepare myself to handle them as they come along. Check out her blog http://escapefromobesity.blogspot.com/ She is amazing.

I now weigh 192.5 lbs. I have lost 112 lbs. 43.5 lbs to go. Let's see how long it takes me.

"That's not you in this picture, is it?"

Today I took my ds to register for Kung Su Do at the local parks a rec. I had to show the registration lady my license to prove that we live in the county. She looked at my license picture then at me. She checked the name and address against the registration paper. Then she looked at the license again and then looked at me. Finally she said "That's not you in this picture, is it?" I told her that yes it was. She said "You have lost a lot of weight". I told her that I had lost a little and she wanted to know how much. When I told her 110lbs she starting talking really loud and acting all excited and congratulating me. It was kind of embarrassing but also really cool that someone noticed just from my license. Kinda made my day.

Ehh...Water weight? Maybe...

This weeks weigh in left a bad taste in my mouth. I only lost 1/2 a lb. I know that is still a loss and I am thankful for it but come on! I ran the freaking Peachtree Road Race! I ate on plan 6 out of 7 days. I walked/ran 2 other days. Of course I did just have my TOM from June 29th til July 4th. Maybe I was retaining water from everything? Yeah, that is what I am blaming it on. It couldn't be the day that I ate way off of plan and ate 2 days worth of food in 1 day, could it? Nah, I didn't think so. Ah well, maybe this week will be better. One can only hope.

Jon gained a lb this week. I think that his was water weight too. He has been doing really great. It has gotten so hard for him to lose weight. He is only 8.5 lbs or so from his goal. I am really proud of him. We are doing it!!!

Peachtree Road Race

Thurs night we went and spent the night at my SIL's (Corrie) house so the kids could stay with her while we ran the PRR. We got up at 5am Friday morning to get ready for the race. We had to be at the Marta station early to get parking. We got to the station at 6:20am and found one of the very last parking spaces available. All the Marta lots on our end of 400 were filled by 6:30am. We got to Peachtree Street just in time to see the very beginning of the race. It was so exciting. Since we were in time group 9 we had to wait a long time before we could start the race. They let time group 1 start then ten mins later time group 2 got to start then 10 mins later time group 3 and so on. Time group 9 was the very last group to start. After watching the beginning of the race we had to walk another 1/2 mile or so to get to our time group area. The race started at 7:30am and I think we finally got to start around 10:00am. There were 9,000 people running in our time group so it was very crowded. We didn't get to run as much as we had hoped to because of all of the people in the way. I know not to check the casual runner/walker box next year. That is why we got put in time group 9 with all the walkers. Nothing wrong with walking it but we wanted to run. Before we got to start the race they had already announced a winner. The guy that won finished in 28:30. He had around a 4.5 min/mile. That is insane to me. People were cheering us on from the sides of the roads. Everyone was spraying us with water so we were soaking wet. So much fun. Corrie brought Mikey and Ella to the race. We got to see them about a mile before the finish line. We stopped and hugged them and then got back to it. I hope that they always remember us doing things like the PRR. We finished the race together in 1 hour and 40 mins. Our goal was to finish in under 2 hours. We did it! We got our T-shirts and had our finisher picture taken then it was a mile walk to the Marta station. Once we got back to the station that we parked at we couldn't find the car. In the excitement and craziness of the morning we couldn't remember where we parked. After a 20 min (probably another mile) walk we finally found the car. All told we walked/ran about 10 miles Friday. It was lots of fun and we will definitely do it again. We are actually planning on doing a half-marathon in November in Tenn.

If you want to see some pictures from the PRR you can go to www.marathonfoto.com . The race was the Peachtree Road Race 2008. Last name: Hill Number: 97111 (mine) or 97112 (Jon's).

I am really proud of us for finishing the PRR.

2008 is half gone! Peachtree 10K is Friday!

It's official - this year is half gone. In the first six months of this year I lost 50 lbs. I still want to lose 45 lbs. I don't know if I can lose that much by the end of the year but I sure as heck can try. I am going to try. Jon is now 8.5 lbs away from his goal weight. That is crazy to think about. My man is getting healthy and I am so proud of him.

Friday is the Peachtree 10K. 3 days til then. I am excited and scared all at the same time. There are going to be 55,000 people running the race. I am not a big crowd person. I know we can do it and we are going to. Crowds or no crowds I AM going to finish the PRR. I have lost 110.5 lbs in 10 months. I know I can finish this race. It is just a small stepping stone on this journey. This is my journey.

I AM DOING IT AND I AM PROUD!!!

Huge NSV (non scale victory)

I made a friend today. I know that sounds silly but it was a huge NSV for me. I have never been comfortable enough with myself to talk to people that I don't know and get to know them. Today I took my kids to a local park for a picnic lunch. There was a lady there with her kids walking around the track. I actually initiated a conversation with her and after talking to the lady for about 30 mins we decided to meet at the same park every morning to walk and workout. I am so excited and proud of myself. I have a workout buddy!

This weeks weigh in was a mystery!

Weight last week: 199
Weight this week: 195.5

Lost this week: 3.5 lb

Total lost so far: 109 lbs

Left to lose: 46.5 lbs

This weigh in made up for last weeks weigh in. I can't make any sense out of it though. I ate really bad 3 days this past week. My body pretty much does what ever it wants to.

What a mystery indeed.

I did everything right this week?

I did everything right this week. I stayed on plan every day this week for the first time in at least a month. I worked out more than I had in the last month combined. I really expected a big loss. The last several weeks I have been having lots of little 1/2 or 1 lb losses. So guess what I lost this week. Yep, a whopping 1/2 lb! I am thankful that I lost instead of gained. I just don't understand why I didn't lose more. I was really confident that I was going to post a big number. Weight loss makes no sense to me. When I think I have it figured out my body goes and does what ever it wants to. Ugh. Of course I ate bad last night. Not horribly bad but bad none the less. We had Zaxby's for dinner. I got a Zalad but it had Blue Cheese dressing. Who knew that Zaxby's blue cheese dressing is 6 points a pack??? Yeah, I ate bad. So back on the horse today. I will have a bigger loss one of these days I just have to stay on track. Wish me better luck this week!

First Officially Timed 5K

Saturday Jon and I ran in the 2nd Annual March against Meth in our county. It was the first officially timed 5K we have done. I finished in 45:50 and Jon finished in 45:52. I was so excited by the fact that we didn't finish last. There were 7 or 8 people that finished behind us. Now I'm not so nervous about the PeachTree 10K. I just want to finish it. Yay us!

Wow.;~"199.5"~;.Wow

Yes, BethBeth! I am now in Onderland! Thank you for noticing. It is quite amazing to say that. It still seems unreal to me. I hadn't posted about it on here yet because I wasn't sure that I believed it. Me! In the 190's? Really? No way!!! I am! For the first time in 15 years! I couldn't be happier and sadder all at the same time. I am happy because I am doing it. I am becoming what I want to be. I am seeing that I can be and do anything I want to. It is freeing to know that I can do this and that I am doing it. I am proud. It also saddens me to know that I could have done this a long time ago. I didn't have to live the last 20 years of my life in shame. I didn't have to suffer through my teenage years being the "fat girl". It makes me sad that I still have so much to lose. I can't believe that I let myself get so far gone before I decided to fix it. It makes me wonder what is different this time. Why did it finally click for me. My life wasn't so bad. Not like when I was a teen and just wanted to fit in but never did because of my size. Hell, I didn't fit into anything back then. Not my pants, not my shirts. Well, you get the picture. I have also noticed that my outlook on my life is changing as I lose weight and that scares me. But that is another post altogether. :) So many emotions tied to one little number. Seeing the 1XX is freeing, fantastic, scary and so wonderful all at the same time. Buckle your seat belt cause 180's here I come!

Something a friend made for me that blew my mind.

New pictures to compare- 304.5---200.5

First week without a post. :(

I am not sure why I haven't found the time to post at least once this week. Summer time is a crazy busy time. Last Tues at weigh in I had lost another 1.5 lbs bringing my weight to 200.5 lbs and my total lost to 104 lbs. That is FANTASTIC! Jon stayed the same last week. He is so close to his goal weight that it has gotten harder for him to lose weight. He will reach his goals. I believe in him. We have really been trying to work out more lately. It seems that my weight loss has slowed to a crawl this week because of the exercising. I don't know if it is water retention for muscle repair or what but it is making me crazy. I know that my body is changing even if the number isn't getting lower on the scale everyday. I hope to show at least a small loss tomorrow but I guess we will have to wait and see. I plan on posting updated progress photos of myself sometime today or tomorrow. Jon took some pictures of my yesterday that I can FINALLY see a difference in. I am so excited about that. We are well on our way. Training for the Peachtree Road Race. Not going to get a good time but we are going to finish it and that is the most important thing this year. We will work on bettering our times next year. Gotta go clean. Post pictures soon!

10K and another week in the books

Sunday Jon and I walked/ran a 10K. That is 6.2 miles. We finished it in 1 hour 39 mins. Our goal was to finish it in under 2 hours and we did it!!! Crazy good! We also went to a cook out for Memorial Day. We didn't eat bad and stayed on track. Very proud of us.

We both weighed in this morning. Jon lost 1 lb this week. He is at 226 lbs now. I lost 2 lbs this week and now weigh 202 lbs. I can not wait to get under 200! I think I can do it in the next week or two. My July 4th goal was to weigh 199 lbs or less but I think I am going to meet that goal 2 or 3 weeks early so I am going to have to set new ones. We are rockin this weight loss thing.

We have also walked to the park and back 2X this week. It is a 1.92 mile walk round trip. We get to exercise a little and the kids get to play at the park. What could be better?!? I am loving the exercise that we have been getting lately. It makes me feel better!

304.5 & 204 Comparison

Just the facts:

304.5-------------------------204
Size 28 pants Size 16 pants
Size 5X shirts Size XL shirts
46F bra 40DD bra
almost 30min mile 15min mile

So I see it all on paper and think that I have done a great job so far. I still can't see it in pictures or when I look in the mirror. Maybe someone else can. For the first time ever I am adding pictures to this blog. Let me know what you think.

Met a major goal and let down by the reward!

This morning when I weighed in I was very happy. This week I hit the 100 lbs lost mark. When I started this journey I decided that when I had lost 100 lbs I would reward myself with a mini shopping spree. I was really excited when I set out for the mall. I decided to try Victoria Secrets and did get some cute panties but was greatly disappointed that they didn't have any bras that were big enough to fit me. I have no idea why that upset me so greatly. When I started this I was a 46F and now I am a 40DD. I am proud of what I have done so far and I know that I can reach all of my goals but it really hit me hard. It hit me hard that I still have so much to lose and that even after losing so much I can't shop in normal stores. I don't know if Victoria Secrets bras will ever fit me. I hope that some day soon they will but if they don't I can't let this keep me down.

36 weeks - 99.5 lbs

So close to 100 lbs lost! I know I can hit it next week. I can't believe that we have lost so much so fast. This past week was really good for me. I didn't have any trouble staying on plan at all. It is almost scary how easy it was. I hope that this continues but I know it wont always be so easy. Some weeks are just harder than others. Some weeks I feel like I am stumbling all week long. I know it is all in my head. I just have to keep my focus and keep my head straight.

I have noticed a huge difference in my TOM. It used to last 10 or 11 days and be super heavy flow the entire time. Now it lasts for 5 or 6 days and is light to med flow. I am so glad that it has changed! I used to hate it and now it isn't to bad. I will never like it but now it doesn't drive me crazy.

I think Jon had a rough week. He kept going back for more food even though he said that he wasn't hungry. In the end he didn't gain any weight this week but he didn't lose any either. I hope that he has a better week ahead of him. I can't do this without him. He has to get back on track. I know he can. He is strong. Together we are strong.

Gerard Way is...

The lead vocalist for My Chemical Romance. I just said that Gerard Way is a very smart person and then went and looked him up. How is it that someone only 2 years older than me could have said something so profound. At least profound to me. It touched me. Guess I shouldn't let it take anything away knowing that he is in a band. Nothing says that singers can't be smart. Still love the quote. I happen to like My Chemical Romance too!

Gerard Way is a very smart person.

"You should love yourself. Sometimes you have to kind of die inside in order to rise from your own ashes and believe in yourself and love yourself and become a new person....We are all becoming what we want to become"- Gerard Way

I saw this quote on 3FC and it really hit home. I think that is what I have done. I am raising from the ashes and learning to believe in myself and love myself. I am becoming a new person. Now I have to go and find out who this Gerard Way is.

My Magic Numbers---Updated Again

I saw this on a message board (3FC) and thought it was a neat idea. Here are my magic numbers.

304.5-Highest weight ever (9/03/07)
299.0-Out of the 300's (9/10/07)
279.5-Down 25 lbs (10/20/07)
274.0-1st 10% goal (10/27/07)
254.5-Down 50 lbs (12/11/07)
246.5-2nd 10% goal (12/28/07)
245.5-Current weight (01/01/08)
229.5-Down 75 lbs (02/15/08)
226.5-Half way to goal (2/28/08)
222.0-3rd 10% goal (3/14/08)
218.0-No longer Morbidly Obese just Severely Obese (3/23/08)
204.5-Down 100 lbs (5/19/08)

Still working on:
200.0-4th 10% goal
199.0-ONEderland
191.0-No longer Severely Obese just Obese
180.0-5th 10% goal
179.5-Down 125 lbs
164.0-No longer Obese just overweight
162.0-6th 10% goal
149.0-Goal weight (May change later)

TOM & 1/2 lb

Well, it isn't much but it is a loss so I wont complain to loudly. I lost 1/2 lb this week. TOM showed up and is kicking my tail. I haven't had the cravings that I usually have during this time of the month but I have felt generally fat and gross. My pants are fitting different so I know that I am retaining water like crazy. Hopefully it will all be gone by next weigh in. It is a curse I tell ya. I now weigh 207.5 lbs. Yay! I am well on my way to 199.

I was thinking the other day about how boring this blog is. I know why it is as dry as a piece of overdone toast. I haven't wanted to become invested in this blog or my weight loss. I figured if I kept myself emotionally detached then it wouldn't hurt as bad if I failed at this. The closer I get to losing 100 lbs (3 lbs more and I will cross that line) the more I start to believe that I can really do it. Yesterday morning I woke up believing for the first time that I can and will be healthy. Not just faking it until I make it. I woke up really believing it. Great and scary feeling. This whole time the only thing standing between me and success was me. What was I thinking? And this post was going to be super quick because I have to go run errands. :)

We rode our bikes Sat and Sun. It was so much fun! We rode for 5.2 miles on Sat. We rode on the Silver Comet Trail both days. It is so beautiful there. On Sun we rode for 7.2 miles. In all we rode almost 12.5 miles over the two days. My butt hurt bad for a few days after. I told Jon that I need a tractor seat to be able to ride my bike comfortable. That's what I get for having such a big butt! We went and bought me a bigger seat that kinda looks like a tractor seat Sun morning and that is what I used Sun. SO much BETTER. My butt still hurt from Sat's ride but it was better. I am hoping that we get to ride Sun. We will see, it might rain.

Alright, enough blabbing. I do have to run some errands. I am thinking that I will update my magic numbers post sometime today. Be on the lookout for it!

psst: Can you believe that I have lost 97 lbs!!!!!!

Tuesday again-Big loss for both of us!

Dang, this weigh in was good for both of us! Jon lost 2.5 lbs this week and I lost 3.5 lbs. I am so close to having lost 100 lbs and so close to being under 200 lbs. I have to lose 3.5 lbs to hit the 100 lbs lost mark. I think I can do that in the next 2 or 3 weeks!

We ran/walked a 5K on Sat morning. I couldn't breath very well the whole time we were doing it. As soon as we get insurance (June 1st) I am going to the doctor. I know that a lot of why I can't breath is because of my size but I feel like that should have improved with the weight that I have lost. Instead it seems to be worse. I wonder if I might have asthma. We finished the 5K in 46.30 . That is 2 mins faster than the last time we did it. Our pace was right at 15min/mile. It is getting better just gotta keep at it and breath better.

We are going to make it!

1.5 x 3

For the last 3 weeks in a row I have lost 1.5 lbs. Not as much as I wish I had lost but it is a loss none the less. I am 4.5 lbs closer to my goal weight because of the last 3 weeks. I will take it! I have 62.5 lbs left to lose. Crazy! Jon lost 1/2 lb this week. He has lost 75 lbs so far. He has 17.5 lbs left to lose. I can't believe how close he is to his goal weight. I am still counting down to 200. I have 11.5 lbs to lose to get there.

I took the week off from running. I have to get back to it. I had strep throat for about a week and now I am having a hard time getting back to running. If I run every day it doesn't seem like such a chore to me. If I miss one day it is so hard to make myself get back to it. I did walk 5.2 miles on Friday. I feel good about that but know that I have to get back on the running wagon. Between putting up a fence here at the house and trying to get unpacked all the way it is hard to find time to run. See, I can come up with a million excuses for not doing it. I just have to do it!

We are doing well and can keep at this! Yesterday was our 8th anniversary! We were both thinner yesterday than when we got married. I am about 25 lbs thinner and Jon is about 50 lbs thinner. Very happy girl, I am. Happy Anniversary to us.

Memorial Day 3FC 5K

Today we signed up for another 3FC 5K. I am sure that we can finish this one even faster than we did the last one. We are going to do it over Memorial Day weekend. I am sure that things will run smoother this time. Hopefully no lost Ipod's or whatnot. I am wondering if we should put Ella in a stroller and take turns pushing her. Last time she walked about half of it and then we had to take turns carrying her the other half. Talk about a workout! It is hard enough carrying my big self 3.1 miles. It is something much worse to have to carry a 32lb 4 yr old for the last mile. :) Love that kiddo. I know that we expected a ton out of her little legs to be able to carry her 3.1 miles but she wanted to try to walk/run it with the rest of us instead of be confined to the stroller. I love the SCT where we went and walked. It is a beautiful trail that used to be a train trussel. The county/city/state (whoever did it, I am not sure) did a wonderful thing when they turned it into a walking/bicycle path. Ok, enough rambling for now. More later.

Countdown to 200

I lost 1.5 lbs this week. I now weigh 213 lbs and I have lost 91.5 lbs. I can't remember the last time I weighed this. Sometime right after I graduated from high school. I am now counting down to 200 lbs. I can't believe that I only have to lose 13 more lbs to get to 200. So close.

Jon lost 2 lbs this week. He now weighs 233 lbs and has lost right at 75 lbs. Wow!

I look forward to what we have left to lose and wonder if we will ever get there. Then I look back over the last 7 1/2 months and can't believe how fast it has gone. It seems like only yesterday that we both weighted over 300 lbs. We are never going back to that! Looking forward to what the next 7 1/2 months will bring.

Finished our 5K in 56'17"

Our goal was to finish the 3FC 5K in under 1 hour and we did it. We finished in 56'17". We had both the kids with us and our dog. Our dd ended up losing her Ipod shuffle along the Silver Comet Trail. We went back to find it and found the smashed headphones. Someone must have ran over them with their bike but took the shuffle itself. She was very sad and we ended up carrying her the rest of the way. Now I have to get her another shuffle which sucks. At least we finished the 5K!

#38 & #39

Jon and I joined the 3FC 5K. My number for the race is 38. Jon has number 39. It is a virtual 5K where we run on our own and then log our results on the 3FC site. I am excited about it. I have only ran 5K on my own once. We are going to do it Sunday. I want to finish it in under 1 hour. I will update here with our results after Sunday. We can do this!

I've lost 90 lbs!

I can't believe that I have lost 90 lbs so far. I still have about 65 lbs to lose but wow. Can you believe that I have lost 90 lbs!!! I can't. I have started running -YES, Running!- every day! I am loving it. So much in my life has changed over the last 7 months. I never want to go back to that life again. I love being more active. I want to run races. I want to look back 7 months from now and not be able to believe that I have lost xxx lbs! Yes, I want it to be a 3 digit loss. I want to have lost 1XX lbs. And, I will have. To me and 90 lbs gone forever.

Message from Anonymous---Thank you.

I don't know who you are but thank you. Your kind words came at a time when they were really needed. After a rough day I was feeling like giving up. Your words made me snap out of my stupor and recommit to my weight loss efforts. I wish for you and your dh all the success in the world. It doesn't matter that you have waited til your 40's to do this. What matters is that you are making the changes now. Congratulations to you and your dh for all the weight you have already lost. Stick to it and you will be at goal in no time. Yay. Thank you.

39 weeks til 2009

Crazy thoughts. I was wondering how many weeks were left in this year and how much weight I can lose in that time. I want to be at my goal weight by my 30th birthday. There are 39 weeks left in this year and then 3 weeks of 2009 til my 30th. That means that I have 42 weeks to reach my goal weight of 149 lbs. I have 67 lbs to lose to reach my goal weight. I only have to lose 1.6 lbs a week. I can totally do that! That makes me very happy! I can see the end in sight, the light at the end of the tunnel is getting brighter!

5K practice!

We are signing up to run a 5K at the end of this month. I decided this morning to run a 5K (3.1 miles) on the treadmill to see if I could even do it. I DID IT. My pace was 15:39 min/mile. I don't think that is bad at all. My goal for the 5K is to finish it in under 1 hour. With a 15:39 pace I can finish it in under 50 mins!

We lost a little more!

Jon lost 1/2 lb this week. He now weighs 235.5 lbs! I lost 1 lb this week. I now weigh 216 lbs. I haven't weighed this in over 10 years! We are gonna make it. I am so excited. We have now lost a total of 160.25 lbs. We now have 87.75 lbs to lose together. Wow! Got my fingers crossed that we can do it by the end of the year.

Loose Size 18 jeans!

Isn't that insane? When I started this weight loss journey I wore a TIGHT size 28 jeans. I bought me a new pair of jeans this week. I bought a size 18 thinking that I could squeeze into them. I wore them today and they are TO BIG for me. I don't even have to unzip or unbutton them to pull them up or down. I also got a pair of Capris that are size 16. I figured I would be able to wear them this summer. I put them on last night and while they are a little tight they are only a LITTLE tight. I can wear them! I haven't been in a size 16 pants since my freshman year in high school. I was 15 yrs old they last time I could wear a 16. Blows my mind. I have gone down almost 6 pants sizes!!!

I have been struggling all week long. The scale has shown a small gain every morning since Wed morning. I have my official weigh in tomorrow and am hoping for at least a small loss. So far I haven't had a gain and I know it will happen sooner or later I am just hoping for the late. Keep your fingers crossed that the scale is nice to me in the morning.

51%

I want to lose 51% of my starting weight. I feel like I will never be able to acheive that goal. I still have about 23% of my self to lose. I know I didn't get fat over night and I wont get skinny over night but I wish it would hurry up already. I know that this is going to be a life long battle to get the weight off and keep it off but I hate being overweight. Ugh. I am so ready to be able to buy normal size clothes. So ready to be the cute, thin chick. So tired of being fat.

No longer MORBIDLY OBESE!!!!

Wow, what a great feeling. I lost 2 lbs this week bring my weight down to 217lbs. As of this weigh in I am no longer morbidly obese!!!!!!!!! I can't believe I have come this far. I know I have a long way to go but I am well on my way. I haven't weighed this since March 1998. 10 years. Wow.

I am still loving my Nike+ ipod kit. I found out this morning that I can run a mile in under 16 mins. When I first started it took me 24 mins to run a mile. Big improvement.

Last night I noticed that my calves looked smaller so I measured them. One of my big goals is to be able to wear a pair of knee high boots. I have never been able to zip them. My calves were 22" when I started this and now they are 18.5". I need to find out what size they have to be to be able to fit into the boots I want. Something to strive for.

Jon had a rough week scale wise. He stayed the same this week. I tried to tell him that is much better than a gain but I think it discouraged him a little. I am so proud of him. He looks totally different than he used to. He is sexy. He is getting healthier every day. I am proud.

Nike+ ipod sensor

I got me a new pair of shoes over the weekend. They are the Nike+ that take the ipod sensor so you can track your running online. I also got the sensor and an arm band for my ipod nano. Now I am waiting for my nano to get here. It should be here in the mail today. I have signed up for some challenges on the Nike+ website. I am looking foward to trying the sensor out. I hope the nano comes today!

We got a spot!

On July 4th, 2008 we will both be running in the Peachtree Road Race! I am so excited that we both got a spot. I am very nervous about it also. Now I really have to get serious about training to run the 10K. I am looking for a 5K to run in between now and time for the PRR. We have never been in a race of any kind and I think it would be good for us to get our feet wet before PRR. Send all of the good luck and hard work vibes you can. We need em.

Day 205 & PRR applications

We have been at this for 205 days. The amount of weight we have lost in that time is unbelievable. At weigh in this week Jon lost 1 lb. He now weighs 236 lbs. He has lost 71.25 lbs. Crazy! I lost 3.5 lbs this week. I now weigh 219 lbs!!! I have lost 85.5 lbs so far. Wow! We can do this.

I mailed our Peachtree Road Race applications on Monday. It will be a while before we know if we get a spot in the race or not. I have my fingers crossed that we get a spot. I want to finish the PRR! I have lost 85 lbs in around 6 months. I know I can finish a 10K.

TOM kicked my butt---Jon did great!

Only 1/2 lb this week but I am ok with it. It is a loss and it is my TOM. It will be better next week. Jon lost 3.5 lbs this week! He has lost a total of 70.5 lbs. Wow!

Obesity Survivor

I heard the term "Obesity Survivor" this week on the Biggest Loser. I really don't like the term at all. I don't always want to be known as an Obesity Survivor. It sounds like I had a terminal illness that I had no control over. Yeah, it would be nice to say and believe that I had no control over my weight but it would be a lie. I have always had control over my weight. I have always had control over what I put in my mouth. So I haven't always made the best choices. That doesn't mean that I have/had some termial illness that I couldn't do anything about. Ugh, I really hate that term.

I am fat

No it's not a surprise. I have always been fat. I am working hard to change that. It was still a shock to me when my 9 yr old son called me fat this morning. He knows that we do not call people names like that. I never want to be called fat again. More than that I never want my children to think of me as fat again. It makes me very sad that I let myself get so fat. I know that I am changing it but I still have a long way to go. I will get there. I just hope that my children never have to suffer the way that I have because of thier weight. I never want my children to be fat.

6 Months

We weighed in this morning. Jon was down another pound. I was down 4 more pounds. Together we have lost 148.5 lbs. I have lost 81.5 lbs and Jon has lost 67 lbs. We are doing so great. I am over half way to my goal. In 6 months I have made it half way. That is still unbelieveable to me. I am so proud. I have never been so proud of myself. 6 Months! I can't wait to look back at this 6 months from now and see how much farther I have gone. 6 Months.

Feeling like I can't win the race.

I feel like I am in a race. A race where I hurry up and cross the finish line every Tues morning (weigh in) just so I can start all over. I am tired and feeling like I can't win this race. It is the same race every week. I just want to finish this race. I know that in order to get healthy and stay healthy I will always have to run this race. I know that I can and will do it. I am bored with waiting for the day that I wake up skinny. This will forever be a race that I must run but I am sick of starting over. Ugh. Weigh-in is tomorrow morning. I will weigh in and then start the race all over again in anticipation of the finish line of next Tues morning. Wish me luck.

25.45% gone forever!

I haven't figured out my % of weight loss in a few months. Today when I figured it out I was happy to see that I have lost over 25% of myself. Another 25% and I will be at my goal weight. Yay!

Jon has lost 21.5% so far. He is amazing.

Not surprised at all.

I only lost 1/2 lb this week. I wasn't surprised by this at all. I had such a big loss last week and I didn't watch my eating as much as I should have this past week. I will do better this week. I am sure of it. I have lost a total of 77.5 lbs so far. Jon lost 1.5 lbs this week. He has lost a total of 66 lbs. Together we are down 143.5 lbs. We have 104.5 lbs left to lose. We are so gonna make it. We are restarting the C25K on March 1st. That will help us lose more weight and will get us ready for the Peachtree Road Race. Yay us.

Not sure how that happened?!? -141.25

When I weighed this morning I was very pleasently surprised to find out that I lost 6 lbs this week. For the last month I have only lost 1 - 1.5 lbs a week. I figured that my weight loss was just going to be slow going from now on because I have lost so much. Now I am thinking that maybe it was just all the stress coupled with the fact that we hadn't been eating together because Jon was working out his notice in Athens and staying with his mom. Add to that I was having TOM last week and I guess it all works out. We started staying in our house and really focusing on what we have been eating last Thursday. I am so excited about losing 6 lbs this week. I have lost a total of 77 lbs. That is crazy! I have to lose 1 more pound to be half way to my goal weight. I can't believe that I have made it half way in 24 weeks. Jon lost 3 lbs this week. He is doing amazing. He has lost a total of 64.25 lbs. When I look at him I can't believe how much his body has changed. He has always been sexy but now he is even more so because he is more self confident. I love that man and I am so proud of him. I m pretty proud of myself too. Together we have lost 141.25 lbs. Insane.

I was down 1lb and Jon was down 1.5lbs this week!

Not much to report this week. At weigh in this week Jon was down another 1.5 lbs and I was down another 1 lb. Together we have lost 132 lbs. We have about 116 left to lose. We are still in the middle of moving. Still dealing with crap from Jon's family. Really I just wish that it would all blow over. I hate the heartache that all of this has caused for Jon. I guess it is what it is but I still hate it for him. We can do this.

*~70lbs~*

As of last weeks weigh in I had lost 70 lbs. That is a huge number! I can't even believe that I have lost that much weight in 5 months. Wow. I lost 1.5lbs for the week. Still on track.

NYC, My Birthday, Moving, Weighing In

A ton has been going on this week. We had our 3 day whirlwind vacation in NYC over the weekend. Lots of fun and lots of great food! On Monday we got into a huge fight (over something that I still don't understand completely) with the people we were living with and it basically ended with us being kicked out of their house. I am 100% ok with that because I didn't want to live there to begin with. It kinda sucks for Jon though because the people we were living with was his sister and BIL. I hate that his relationship with his family will be strained because of this. Oh and Monday was my birthday. Great day I tell ya. We are moving back home and I couldn't be happier about that. I have missed my family like crazy and I have missed our house. It will be good. I weighed this morning expecting a big gain because of our trip to NYC and the stress of the week. I LOST 1 lb. I am so excited about that. I know that I can keep on keeping on. Yay. I wonder how Jon did? He has to work a 2 week notice so he is staying with his mom for 2 weeks. I miss him so much. He is an amazing man and I am lucky to have him in my life. I haven't seen him since Tues night. I will get to see him tonight and I can't wait! I love that man.

3 Days of bad eating = 2 weeks of hard work down the drain.

We went to New York over the weekend. For the three days that we were there I ate pretty much whatever I wanted to. The food was fantastic. Jon and I decided that since we were out of town and ate bad for 3 days that we would move this weeks weigh in back by 3 days. That means that we are going to weigh in on Friday this week. I know that I am going to have a gain. It really sucks because I did it to myself. I ate badly. I decided that it was ok since we were on vacation. Looking back I know that I was wrong. I know that if I had learned the right lessons on this weight loss journey then I would have had 1 or 2 meals that weren't that great for me and I would have eaten right the rest of the time. Every meal that we had in New York was bad for us. And not just bad for us but lots of bad. The portions were huge. I had burgers and fries and milkshakes and chocolate candy. I am sure that this will set me back by a couple of weeks. All of that hard work over the last 2 or 3 weeks ruined because of 3 stupid days. UGH. I will not let this break me but I do hope that I learn from it.

NSV! Treadmill

We went to the Y yesterday during lunch and used the treadmills. I discovered something while I was on the treadmill. When I first started losing weight in Sept I could only walk at a speed of 1.5 and I ran at a speed of 3.0. Now I walk at a speed of 3.0 and run at 4.1. I have doubled how fast I walk. Before I could walk a mile in over 35 mins. Now I can walk a mile in 20 mins. That is my first huge NSV.

125.5 gone - 122.5 left

We are over half way to our combined total goal of weight lose. I lost 2.5 lbs this week taking me to 237lbs. I have 88 lbs left to lose. I have lost a total of 67.5 lbs so far. Jon lost 1.3 lbs this week taking him to 249.2 lbs. He has lost a total of 58.5 lbs. He has 34.25 more to lose to reach his goal. We can do this. I think we can do it by Jan 1st, 2009. In order to reach goal by then I have to lose 1.8 lbs a week. That is doable. Jon would have to lose 0.45 lbs a week. He will probably reach goal sometime in the early summer. If he shot for June 1st he would have to lose 1.8 lbs a week. Either way we can both start 2009 at or below goal. That is so exciting!

Weigh-in 1/15/08

Jon and I both lost 1.5 lbs a piece this week. So far we have lost 122 lbs I think. We had a birthday party for our dd and ds yesterday. We did eat a little cake. I hope that it doesn't kill my weigh in on Tuesday morning. So far I am loving the BL challenge on 3FC. We joined the YMCA this past week. I went and worked out on Friday. I am hoping to go at least 5 days a week. Why didn't I join there sooner??? They even have free childcare while I workout. I love it! Keeping my fingers crossed for a good weigh in this week!

3FatChicks---Biggest Loser Challenge

Jon and I joined the Biggest Loser challenge on 3FatChicks. We are both on the Black team. I am excited about the challenge. I just worry that I wont remember to weigh-in on time every week. The challenge is 12 weeks long. My goal for the challenge is to lose 20 lbs. That would put me at 221 lbs by the end of the 12 weeks. Jons goal is to lose 20 lbs during the challenge also. That would put him weighing it at 232 lbs. I need to set up some kind of reminder so I will post our weights every week. We can do this!

4.5 me + 5.5 dh = 10 lbs in one week!

Jon and I lost 10 lbs together this week. Total I have lost 63.5 lbs and Jon has lost 55 lbs for a combined total of 118.5 lbs gone. Pretty unbelieveable. In 4 months we lost 118.5 lbs. I can't wait to see what the next 4 months will bring our way! Yay us!

Total lost in 2007---109 pounds

In 2007 we lost 109 lbs together. Since Sept 3rd I have lost 59lbs and Jon has lost 50lbs. We both met our New Years goal weights and have set new goals. By July 4th my goal is to be under 200lbs and Jon's goal is to be under 215lbs. I have gone down 4 pants sizes and 3 shirt sizes since we started this. Jon has gone down 2 pants sizes and 1 shirt size. Together we can do this. I am so proud of us.

My magic numbers:Updated

I saw this on a message board (3FC) and thought it was a neat idea. Here are my magic numbers.

304.5-Highest weight ever (9/03/07)
299.0-Out of the 300's (9/10/07)
279.5-Down 25 lbs (10/20/07)
274.0-1st 10% goal (10/27/07)
254.5-Down 50 lbs (12/11/07)
246.5-2nd 10% goal (12/28/07)
245.5-Current weight (01/01/08)
229.5-Down 75 lbs (02/15/08)

Still working on:
226.5-Half way to goal
222.0-3rd 10% goal
218.0-No longer Morbidly Obese just Severely Obese
204.5-Down 100 lbs
200.0-4th 10% goal
199.0-ONEderland
191.0-No longer Severely Obese just Obese
180.0-5th 10% goal
179.5-Down 125 lbs
164.0-No longer Obese just overweight
162.0-6th 10% goal
149.0-Goal weight (May change later)