Where does the time go? My time has been spent at ER's and Doctor offices for the last month. A few weeks ago I started having heart fluttering and chest pain. Through every test imaginable I think we have finally narrowed it down to what is wrong with me. I went yesterday and had my stress echo test. Everything checked out a-ok with it. Of course, I have always heard that there is a calm before the storm. When I got home there was a message for me to call my cardiologist for the results of some of the other tests I have had done. It was to late to call them back but I knew that there was something wrong because I signed a wavier saying they could leave test results on the answering machine if they came back normal. I finally called them this morning and they had my carotid artery ultra-scan results. They say that I have a blockage in my left carotid artery. I am not sure how bad the blockage is. I have an appointment on Nov 3rd with a Vascular Surgeon to have more tests done and to discuss surgical options. I am scared beyond belief. My granddaddy died from complications from surgery to remove a blockage in his left carotid artery. I know that there are differences in his case and mine but it still scares the crap out of me. I haven't cried yet but I did come close. As the day goes on I feel more hopeless and more like I need a good cry. Please pray for me but more than that pray for my kids. Mikey and Ella are my world and damn it, I don't want thier mommy to be taken away from them while they are so young. (See, I told you I felt pretty hopeless.)
On the weight loss front I am still pushing through. I am down to 173.5 lbs. I am not sure how much I have lost in the last month as I don't remember how much I weighed the last time I posted. I think I am averaging about 5lbs a month now. Not a whole lot but it is headed in the right direction and it will add up eventually. Now we just have to see if I will live long enough to reach my weight loss and life goals. Wish me luck.
