Today will be my second day back on track. I did pretty well yesterday and stuck to my plan. It feels good to be back on plan and have control over my eating again. Yay!
6am: Apple Cinnamon Oatmeal w/ 1 t peanut butter & 1/2 C coffee- 200 calories
I plan to have a banana around 10am. I will have a salad with a few ounces of chicken off the EGG (the BEST grill/smoker in the world) for lunch. I am not sure what dinner will be yet. I have school tonight so unless I find something to throw in the crockpot dinner will be up to Jon. Gotta think about it. Today WILL be a great, OP day!
Thursday, March 05, 2009
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
Trying to write it all down
6:00 am: Apple Cinnamon Oatmeal w/ 1 teaspoon of peanut better & 1/2 cup coffee: 200 calories
10:45 am: 2 slices of homemade pizza & salad w/ free Catalina dressing: 400 calories
I will probably have a banana for a snack in a few hours. I will have about 600 calories left for dinner. We are having Red Beans and Rice tonight. For the rice, beans, and mock smoked sausage. I think it comes out to about 450 calories per serving (1C cooked rice, 2oz sausage, and 3/4C beans). That is a lot! It is a lot of food too. Maybe I wont eat that much? Should have looked it up before I put the stuff in the crock pot. :) I will have salad w/ free Catalina also. That will add about 50 calories to the total. Maybe we will have some kind of steamed veggie to bulk up the meal so I will eat less rice and beans. I can pull today out as long as I don't mindlessly snack or add an extra meal to my day. Keep your fingers crossed.
10:45 am: 2 slices of homemade pizza & salad w/ free Catalina dressing: 400 calories
I will probably have a banana for a snack in a few hours. I will have about 600 calories left for dinner. We are having Red Beans and Rice tonight. For the rice, beans, and mock smoked sausage. I think it comes out to about 450 calories per serving (1C cooked rice, 2oz sausage, and 3/4C beans). That is a lot! It is a lot of food too. Maybe I wont eat that much? Should have looked it up before I put the stuff in the crock pot. :) I will have salad w/ free Catalina also. That will add about 50 calories to the total. Maybe we will have some kind of steamed veggie to bulk up the meal so I will eat less rice and beans. I can pull today out as long as I don't mindlessly snack or add an extra meal to my day. Keep your fingers crossed.
I don't want to talk about it! Or maybe I do...
I am sure that you can tell that I don' want to talk about it since it has been over a month since I posted. It isn't good but it really isn't that bad either. <----That is the excuse I have been using ALL year long. That is why I now weight 162 lbs. That means in the first 9 weeks of this year I have only lost 5.5 lbs. 9 weeks-5.5lbs...not very good. It sucks that I have spent the last month losing and gaining the same 3 lbs. I have all kinds of excuses-I had pnemonia the whole month of Feb, my daughter has been sick off and on for 3 weeks, school is kicking my butt-but that is all they are: EXCUSES! The truth is harder to type out here. The truth is I have been slacking big time. I haven't been exercising at all. I could fit it into my day if I would manage my time better. I have been eating pretty much whatever I want to. I am blessed and thankful that I haven't gained a million lbs. I should have by now. I am mad at myself for my behavior over the last 2 months. When I got sick I started to use food as comfort. That is a habit I broke a long time ago. WTF? Why did I start that again? I haven't been drinking enough water. I have still been drinking around 75 oz a day, but I was drinking 2 gallons (256 ozs) a day. Lately, I have been drinking Coke Zero. That is stupid. I hadn't drank a soda in over a year until I got sick. Comfort. Has nothing changed??? I thought I had found things outside of food/drinks to comfort me. Gotta get my mind around this and NOW. Ugh. Wanna know how bad I have been lately? Yeah, me too. So, I am going to type out what I ate yesterday and try to add calorie content to it. Maybe seeing it in number will make a difference. Maybe it will make me change the direction that I am going in. Today is a new day and I CAN do this. Here we go:
5am: Apple Cinnamin oatmeal w/ 1 teaspoon peanut butter & coffee: 250 calories
9am: Chicken Biscuit w/ hashbrown & unsweet tea: 850 calories (Ouch)
4pm: Arby's Bacon Blu RoastBurger w/ fries and Pepsi: 1150 calories (my whole days worth) :(
8pm: 3 Slices Homemade Chicken pizza & salad w/ light ranch dressing & water: 600 calories
Total for the day: 2850 calories
That makes me feel sick. I knew I ate really bad, I didn't know it was that bad. Yuck. How do I fix this? It isn't so far gone that it can't be fixed. I haven't gained any weight, I am just not losing either. What did it take in the beginning to get on the wagon? Where did the determination come from? How do I get it back? Yes, I did eat 4 times yesterday. I don't usually do that. The last few weeks I have been and it has to stop now! No more excuses. I have wasted 2 months out of this year. That means I only have 10 months to lose 30 lbs. That is attainable but not if I keep eating like a cow. Weight loss got so easy and I think I got to relaxed about it all. Then the bottom fell out. To reach my year end goals I have to lose 3 lbs a month. I can do that. The NEW me starts today!
That was a lot of talking for someone who doesn't want to talk about it. :) I feel like if I talk about it and face it instead of avoiding it, things will turn around. No more hiding or avoiding. The first step is admitting you have a problem.
5am: Apple Cinnamin oatmeal w/ 1 teaspoon peanut butter & coffee: 250 calories
9am: Chicken Biscuit w/ hashbrown & unsweet tea: 850 calories (Ouch)
4pm: Arby's Bacon Blu RoastBurger w/ fries and Pepsi: 1150 calories (my whole days worth) :(
8pm: 3 Slices Homemade Chicken pizza & salad w/ light ranch dressing & water: 600 calories
Total for the day: 2850 calories
That makes me feel sick. I knew I ate really bad, I didn't know it was that bad. Yuck. How do I fix this? It isn't so far gone that it can't be fixed. I haven't gained any weight, I am just not losing either. What did it take in the beginning to get on the wagon? Where did the determination come from? How do I get it back? Yes, I did eat 4 times yesterday. I don't usually do that. The last few weeks I have been and it has to stop now! No more excuses. I have wasted 2 months out of this year. That means I only have 10 months to lose 30 lbs. That is attainable but not if I keep eating like a cow. Weight loss got so easy and I think I got to relaxed about it all. Then the bottom fell out. To reach my year end goals I have to lose 3 lbs a month. I can do that. The NEW me starts today!
That was a lot of talking for someone who doesn't want to talk about it. :) I feel like if I talk about it and face it instead of avoiding it, things will turn around. No more hiding or avoiding. The first step is admitting you have a problem.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Weigh in 1/25-1/31 *They say its your birthday*
Weight last week: 163.5
Weight this week: 163
Lost this week: -.5 lbs
Total lost so far: 141.5 lbs
Left to lose: 14 lbs (to orig goal) 28.5 lbs (to new goal)
Did really good this week until Sat. I ate everything that I could on Sat. I have got to figure out a better way to handle stress.
Today is my birthday. I am the big 3-0. Old as dirt. 73 lbs smaller than the day that I turned 29. Yeehaw.
Weight this week: 163
Lost this week: -.5 lbs
Total lost so far: 141.5 lbs
Left to lose: 14 lbs (to orig goal) 28.5 lbs (to new goal)
Did really good this week until Sat. I ate everything that I could on Sat. I have got to figure out a better way to handle stress.
Today is my birthday. I am the big 3-0. Old as dirt. 73 lbs smaller than the day that I turned 29. Yeehaw.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
I am NOT OBESE anymore!!!
I think it just sunk in this morning that I am not obese anymore. I am so happy about all that I have accomplished! Proud doesn't even come close to describing it. It is all a bit like a dream to me. I never thought that I could pull this off, yet here I am down 141 lbs and within 29 lbs of my goal. I know that weight loss isn't the magic cure all, but it has given me so much hope that I know I can make all of my dreams come true. Watch out world, here I come!!!
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Weigh-in 1/20/09
Weight last week: 164
Weight this week: 163.5
Lost this week: -.5 lbs
Total lost so far: 141 lbs
Left to lose: 14.5 lbs (to orig goal) 29 lbs (to new goal)
Bad week eating wise. We had Mikey and Ella's birthday party. I ate a ton of pizza and cake. I am writing down all of my food as of today. I will get back on track and kick my own a**. On a good note---I am NO longer Obese! As of this weigh in I am just Overweight. I am so excited about that. I know that I can reach all my goals. I will be at my goal weight by the end of this year!
Weight this week: 163.5
Lost this week: -.5 lbs
Total lost so far: 141 lbs
Left to lose: 14.5 lbs (to orig goal) 29 lbs (to new goal)
Bad week eating wise. We had Mikey and Ella's birthday party. I ate a ton of pizza and cake. I am writing down all of my food as of today. I will get back on track and kick my own a**. On a good note---I am NO longer Obese! As of this weigh in I am just Overweight. I am so excited about that. I know that I can reach all my goals. I will be at my goal weight by the end of this year!
Friday, January 09, 2009
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
Great week finally!
Weight last week: 169.5
Weight this week: 165.5
Lost this week: -4 lbs
Total lost so far: 139 lbs
Left to lose: 16.5 lbs (to orig goal) 31 lbs (to new goal)
Great on track week. I exercised like I should and ate really well. I have decided to change my goal weight. Since I started losing weight my goal has been 149 lbs. I have decided to try to get to 134.5 lbs. That will put me at a healthy weight according to my BMI. It will also bring my weight lost to an even 170 lbs. I think I can reach that goal this year. Wish me luck.
Weight this week: 165.5
Lost this week: -4 lbs
Total lost so far: 139 lbs
Left to lose: 16.5 lbs (to orig goal) 31 lbs (to new goal)
Great on track week. I exercised like I should and ate really well. I have decided to change my goal weight. Since I started losing weight my goal has been 149 lbs. I have decided to try to get to 134.5 lbs. That will put me at a healthy weight according to my BMI. It will also bring my weight lost to an even 170 lbs. I think I can reach that goal this year. Wish me luck.
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