See what being gone all day does for you?!?

It seems that teams were assigned for GAG today while I was out and about. I am gonna have to email Sheila and let her know that she has to hold the presses until I am home and on the computer. :) j/k Really though, I hope that her little one is recovering from the flu. It is awful when your babies are sick. Ok, I will stop yapping and go check out the teams now. BRB.

Drum roll, please...
TEAM COMET
Jones
Lanel
Manda
Jon
Laurie
Melisa
Kim

Well, there it is! The reason I couldn't sleep last night. heehee. I am stoked that my hubby is on my team. I am also excited to get to know the other members of Team Comet. I am so loving all the support that has already been going around. I was worried about joining a challenge on a blog, but I am so glad that I did. Funny how something so simple can completely turn things around for you. I had a fantastic food day. I ate right on track. I was tempted by pizza at my parents house and I politely said no thanks. I felt so powerful in that moment. I felt the power to control what I put in my mouth and the power to control my size. I haven't felt that power in several months. It felt good. That feeling is how I lost so much weight to begin with. It was then that I started thinking about how great I have done. Not to sweep the last couple of months while I have been struggling under the rug, but I really have done so much better then I ever would have believed that I could.

Two years ago TODAY is when my husband and I started losing weight. I weighed 304.5 lbs. This morning I was 186.5 lbs. That is a 118 lb loss. Wow, it doesn't even seem real still. My dh was 307.5 lbs and is now 235 lbs. He rocks! Crazy.

Ok, a big shout out to all the COMETS! We can ALL do this! I am hitting the sack but will talk to you all tomorrow. Can't wait!

But I'm too excited to sleep!

I just got home from A&P II. We did hematocrits tonight. I loved it. I am so tired and need to head to bed, but I wanted to stop by the GAG challenge and see what was going on. Just reading up on the challengers made me think about how excited I am to see the teams. I can't wait. I am going to bed, but I already know that I am too excited to sleep. Today was a better day food wise then yesterday. Tomorrow will be even better!

The best of intentions on Day 1

Day 1 is in the books. Can't go back now, only forward. Yesterday I did ok with my eating. I say ok and not great because lunch kinda got me. I was away from home in an area that I am not real familiar with. I was starving so I decided to find something for lunch. After passing 15 fast food restaurants I found a small locally owned cafe. I thought that it would be great. I could get some veggies and get out of lunch without going way over board. Have you ever been to a small cafe like this? When I went in I was surprised to find that they only have a lunch special. It is different every day apparently. Yesterday, the lunch being served was pork loin w/2 sides. I didn't think that would be to bad. Except the sides were cheese potatoes, candied yams, or mashed potatoes. Yeah, lots of healthy vegetable choices. :P I ended up getting cheese potatoes and candied yams. It was really yummy but not so great for me. Now I know not to stop there again. Wish I could have found a Subway. Sometimes the best of intentions turn out bad. Now to look forward. I WILL have a great day today. I WILL exercise today. I WILL reach my goals this year! I am so excited over the GAG challenge. Thank you Sheila! You have no idea how motivated this challenge has made me!

GAG-Sept 1st-Beginning Pics

It is not pretty. I have been all over the place with the scale lately. Last week I was 181.6, this week I am 187.6. How in the world do you gain 6 lbs in one week? I think it had something to do with the overload of carbs and meatloaf this week. But, today is a new start! GAG here I come.

I still don't fit in...even after losing over 125 lbs.

Blame it on Tyra Banks. On her show today she had highschool students that don't fit in. Most of the girls were overweight and said that people treated them different because of thier weight. There were a few popular girls from the highschool there as well. One of the popular girls agreed to be made over into a fat chick with a fat suit. They called it a "social experiment". The girl that put on the fat suit was getting all kinds of snide remarks from the people at school. I get that all of life isn't like highschool. But, I also believe that school shapes a person into who they will be for life. My whole life has been a social experiment. I am still completely socially inept. All through school, I was the fat kid. I learned early in life that kids can be mean. Mean as hell. I learned to do anything that I could to keep people from noticing me. If I was noticed, it was just so the other kids could make fun of me and call me names because of my weight. I am still overweight, but no longer morbidly obese. However, I still have the morbidly obese mindset. I still walk with my eyes on the ground. Another learned behavior from my school days, I am sure. If I walk with my eyes looking at the ground, I don't have to meet the gaze of people that are smirking and making fun of me. I still have a hard time talking to people. I went so long being the fat girl in the corner that no one would talk to, that it is difficult for me to have a conversation with anyone. It makes me very uncomfortable to be around people that I don't know very well. I am 30 years old and I still don't fit in. I feel socially retarded. I am so socially slow that it is painful. Thinking about stuff like this makes me feel like I will never be normal and fit in no matter how much weight I lose...

Joining a challenge- GAG

So, I just got brave and joined a challenge. It is a 16 week challenge and starts on Sept 1. I am hoping that the challenge will help keep me accountable. So far this year has been a free for all with eating. I have to weigh in every Tues and post my weight to the challenge. I am hanging out right round 180 lbs, I think. I will update here on Tues when I post for the challenge. Yay me. :)

Ridiculously Easy Roasted Yellow Squash and Onions | Recipe from FatFree Vegan Kitchen

This is what is for dinner in my house. Give it a try. It looks fantastic.
Ridiculously Easy Roasted Yellow Squash and Onions Recipe from FatFree Vegan Kitchen

What's for dinner? Umm, squash!

Trying to figure out what to make for dinner tonight. I have been making really bad choices with cooking lately. I slipped back into the bad habit of cooking what was easiest, cheapest, or most comforting. Now that I am trying to get back on track and eat healthy I am unsure what to eat. I have never really kept a food journal (I know, I know-I should always do that) so I can't just look back and see what we were eating that was working. I do still have a few recipes that I know we like and are healthy, but in general I feel like I am starting all over. This time I am going to try to keep a food journal. It is just hard for me to remember to write it all down. No more excuses though, right? So back to dinner for tonight. I have some squash that needs to be cooked. I found this recipe http://blog.fatfreevegan.com/2009/08/ridiculously-easy-roasted-yellow-squash.html . (I can't figure out how to make the link little and cute like other people do...) Looks good, huh? Now I just have to figure out what to cook with the squash. That seems to be my downfall. I can never come up with tasty and healthy sides. They are either healthy or tasty, but never both at the same time. Really, I guess the squash is more of a side with my family. Just not sure what to make with it.